you gave meaning in my life,
you gave me reason to love.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
today i just had one of those days. one of those days worth trashing. worth dumping. worth forgetting. it's just one of those days where in you just want to jump off the 3rd floor of the second year wing so as to put an end to this misery. and you know what's the irony?.. it's because of me, myself, and i. haay...
i dunno what gotten into me last nyt. cguro dhil sa pagnanasa kong magpapansin sa kanya dahil hindi ko cya makausap kaya ko un biglang nagawa. pero sa dinami dami ng msg sa fone ko, why dat certain msg?? why would i send sumthing like dat to a someone i dear the most?! why? sh!t..
"pampalipas oras mo lang...." though it doesn't seem such a striking line at all, it did made me sorrowful and of course scared. i was afraid of what will happen. i dont want her gone. but, how can i say sorry? how can i show to her that i am lost ryt now knowing that sum1 is mad at me. and not just any ordinary person. it had to be her... the one person i chose to adore. fuck! i feel such an ass at what i had done. it was just plain stupid!! oh man.. i dont know how to text her ryt now. i dont know how to actually ask for her mercy. aaahhh!!!
and yet.. i wish to again plee for forgiveness. i know it was all because of me. im sorry. pls forgive me.. let me start over.. i dont know how angry you are ryt now but the fact that ur angry bcoz of me shatters me completely.. im soo sorry...
