you gave meaning in my life,
you gave me reason to love.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
I'LL BE by goo goo dolls
The strands in your eyes That color them wonderful Stop me and steal my breath Emeralds from mountains Thrust towards the sky Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips Instead of the gallows Of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof As we lie awake in my bed You're my survival You're my living proof My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips Instead of the gallows Of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I've dropped out Burned up Fought my way back from the dead Tuned in Turned on Remembered the things you said
I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of you life
wala lang. just thought of posting this song here. i dont know why im posting it. basta ito. nakalagay na cya. hahaha! umm, i'll be, this song is very senti. la lang im feeling a little senti today heehhe.. basta aun. just enjoy this ok? hehehehe. umm.. today was another typical school day.. a new lesson in bio, math, english and others. i just got my last exam scoring an 86/100 in my ap exam.(stupid sequencing! bcoz of that i had a low score.. well for me that's low enough...) basta aun. everything was ok except for the fact that i have no load today and that i didnt txt all day long.. wow! amazing! hahaha!! basta aun.. hi na lng sa mga taong makakabasa nito ngaun hehehehehe......
*i just wanna be with you*
5:10 PM
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
today is tuesday. ala pasok kahapon kasi nilipat ung bonifacio day holiday kahapon para long weekend na lng. hehehe. masaya ung weekend. hehehe
last weekend, aus na kmi. she said na uncertain lng cya pero everything's fyn. hehehe. tapos masaya kming nagtetext buong weekend. and even though natulugan ko cya 2 days straight (sorry ah.. peace!) pinatawad nya ako.. totoo kya?! hahaha! joke. i trust her. umm.. aun.. nung sunday bored ako kasi ako lang tao sa bahay all day. pumunta divisoria buong pamilya except me. umalis cla mga 9am bumalik mga 6:30 at walang nabili! ewan ko ba. pero gumastos daw sila ng 3,500. dala lng is a small plastic bag with food (pasalubong nila sa akin.. heheheh). hahaha! this day was really ok even though i was all alone. actually d nmn halos eh kc dami ako ktxt.. (tnx cellphone!)
then kahapon, nagayos kmi ng mga kahon sa taas ng cabinet. ang dumi!!!.. nagumpisa kmi ng 9am natapos kmi sa paglinis mga 3pm. haha! nakita ko ung mga books ko from prep to grade 7. pwede na nga raw kmi magtayo ng mini library sa dami eh! hahaha!!.. tapos i had to fix the bed insyd the room. pagtapak ko kasi, bumigay! tagal na kc un eh.. basta un.,. hehehehe.. tapos i found a pic of my dad with me in EK.. la lng. bigla ko sya naalala tuloy. haay.. i miss my dad.. haay..
this day, nakapagpahinga rin cya after 2 str8 days na puro labas.. hahahah! kaso nga lng, tinulugan ko cya.. sorry ha... tawad po..
tapos ngaun, nakuha nmin ung exam results nmin. aus nmn lahat SANA until we recived our math exams. sa section nmin, only around 5-7 passed! oh my gosh. and im not one of them. i got a freakin' 53/80! 7 pts below the passing mark! oh man! that was my first failing exam ever in my entire lyf! grabe! woah! hahaha! tapos, ala lng. may nasaktan ako clasm8 ko knina kc napalakas ung push ko sa knya. sorry nash...
nu ba yan puro ako sorry... dpt cguro, kanta na lng ako ng "sorry na".. hahahahah!!
haay..
*i just wanna be with you*
5:07 PM
Friday, November 25, 2005
why must i entitle this entry "why"? hirs why......
it's becoz.. im confused. why did i have to do it? why must i hurt her? why?! i didn't mean to hurt her. i only wanted to text her. but why must i have to send her that particular message? it doesn't mean anything at all. tis so stupid.. im so stupid..
now that we're ok, why do i feel something's different? why?.. i feel so empty.. becoz of my stu[pid actions.. im now confused.. why does it have to change? nothing's wrong. nothing...
please...
*i just wanna be with you*
5:02 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
today i just had one of those days. one of those days worth trashing. worth dumping. worth forgetting. it's just one of those days where in you just want to jump off the 3rd floor of the second year wing so as to put an end to this misery. and you know what's the irony?.. it's because of me, myself, and i. haay...
i dunno what gotten into me last nyt. cguro dhil sa pagnanasa kong magpapansin sa kanya dahil hindi ko cya makausap kaya ko un biglang nagawa. pero sa dinami dami ng msg sa fone ko, why dat certain msg?? why would i send sumthing like dat to a someone i dear the most?! why? sh!t..
"pampalipas oras mo lang...." though it doesn't seem such a striking line at all, it did made me sorrowful and of course scared. i was afraid of what will happen. i dont want her gone. but, how can i say sorry? how can i show to her that i am lost ryt now knowing that sum1 is mad at me. and not just any ordinary person. it had to be her... the one person i chose to adore. fuck! i feel such an ass at what i had done. it was just plain stupid!! oh man.. i dont know how to text her ryt now. i dont know how to actually ask for her mercy. aaahhh!!!
and yet.. i wish to again plee for forgiveness. i know it was all because of me. im sorry. pls forgive me.. let me start over.. i dont know how angry you are ryt now but the fact that ur angry bcoz of me shatters me completely.. im soo sorry...
ohh man...
*i just wanna be with you*
5:26 PM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
A TEAR by: spongecola
How is life on the other side how is it like to be without the without the usual typical illusional difficult me
How is life on the other side I’m not even sure if I still remember how you did you change at all did you cut your hair are you still in touch with tha told perfume you used to wear
life the usual typical illusional difficult you just you
speak to me I don’t know what to expect speak to me alone and out of breathe speak to me I don’t have anything left speak to me oh speak to me
I wish I could tell you how I’ve been I wish I could tell you everything everything do you even know what you’re fighting for coz I cant remember I cant see it anymore
Pretending Im fine Im happy can’t you see who gives a fuck about HTML Im lying through my teeth why won’t we comeback why wont we comeback
*i just wanna be with you*
5:34 PM
"sweet, so would i. yet i should kill thee with much cherishing. good night, good night. parting is such sweet sorrow that i shall say 'good night' till it be morrow." "sleep dwell upon thine eyes, peice in thy breast. would i were sleep and peace so sweet to rest. hance will i to my ghostly friar's close cell, his help to crave, and my dear hap tell." excerpts from romeo and juliet..
hahaha.. wala lang. na-astigan lang ako sa shakespearean language. hahahaha.. astig pala itong story/play. kahit na hard-to-understand yung text, magegets mo rin nmn eh. umm.. it was so nice. i just read the balcony scene of it and i was amazed of all those deep words full of love and meaning. i cant help but be in awe with all of those. umm... un lang.. hahaha..
cant think of anything pa eh.. ayy oo nga pala. i just wanna greet someone very special to me.. i didnt text her today since im out of load. umm.. i rily miss her too and i wish i cud text her now.. haay.. and whomever she might be... i love you so much bhie.. i'll try to contact you later. but if i cant. umm.. good night then if u wud see my msg tonyt. pray ka b4 u sleep. and once again, i love u bhie.. ü ü ü
*i just wanna be with you*
5:32 PM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
TALK SHOWS ON MUTE by: Incubus
Take a bow, pack on powder, Wash 'em out with buzzing lights, Pay an audience to care, 'Impress me' personality
Still and transfixed The electric sheep are dreaming of your face Enjoy you from the chemical Comfort of America
Come one, come all Into 1984 Yeah, three, two, one Lights! Camera! Transaction!
Quick, your time is almost up Make 'em forget that they're the moth Edging in, towards the flame, Burn into obscurity
Still and transfixed The electric sheep are dreaming up your fate And judge you from the card castle comfort of America
Come one, come all Into 1984 Yeah, three, two, one Lights, camera...yeah Come one, come all Into 1984 Yeah, three, two one Lights! Camera! Transaction!
Lights! Camera! Transaction!
Come one, come all Into 1984 Yeah, three, two, one Lights! Camera! Transaction!
The foundation is canyoning Fault lines should be worn with pride I hate to say but, You're so much more You're so much more Endearing with the sound turned off.
*i just wanna be with you*
5:28 PM
Friday, November 11, 2005
its friday again. im feeling a bit empty right now. (i rily dont know why.....) haay. another week has come and pass. it feels so fast. (parang kanta nuh?!) hay. my mind's empty ryt now.
something's missing.....
basta i feel so down and gloomy as if a cloud of immense intensity brought a sudden burst of sorrow and grief. i dont remember someone i lost toady.. basta i feel not hu i rily am. haay.. may kulang yata. and i hope its nothing serious..
thats it. haay.. bad day..
end..
*i just wanna be with you*
5:22 PM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
oh man. it's been a while since i had the oppurtunity to put something here! almost two weeks without blooger. haha! so much things happened during sem break and i was a bit dissatisfied with it. give us another sem break! waah!
before sem break, we had our sophomores nyt at the high school covered courts in ateneo. we got to see our classmate's new band named "BANANA NATION". i dont know why and how them came up with that name but tey sure rocked! woohoo! idol ko si blow! hahaha! then there were some other 2nd year bands from our batch and from other schools as well. an open dance was then held wer in we got the chance to go wild! we danced so much and made crazy stuff! but it ended too soon since i had to leave early. i got out at around 9:30 pm with a cherished memory even though it was so sudden.
then the next day, we went to batangas for all saints day and to relax a bit. we stayed there for about 6 days and it was a very jam packed 6 days. there i got to meet up with all my other friends and my close cousins. we had pangangaluluwa wer in we sang to all houses in the barrio collecting money for the chapel there. it was somewhat a different version of trick or treating but it was sure fun. it happened on the eve of all saints day, by d way. then after that we continued to party at dane's place (a very close cousin and close friend of mine!..) were we drank 14 bottles of san mig lyt! man! we were so high! hahaha!! some of us were being so talkative, others were being so annoying while some tried to hide it (including me!).
but in truth, i did something i never thought i cud ever do in my life. haay. it was so magical and so unforgetable. even though it was short, i cherished every second of it.
after that event, everything went so fast. my friends had to leave the next day and then we were left. haay. sem break was finally over. i can feel it. but as it inched towards the end, it grew more exciting and worth while. haay.. she finally said something i have longed soo much! and it was just heaven.. i will never forget those days. haay.
i hope it didnt end. i hope it will never end. and wat i have today, i hope that it wud be strong even at the face of trials and adversities. haay.
